I promised myself that I am going to post a blog at least once a week. Then the dreaded lockdown started. It doesn’t feel like your body is closed in, but your soul too. You probably know what I am talking about. And I am one of those people that the less I do, the less I want to do. To write this blog, I have to summon all the creativity in me. Which is limited, to begin with. I know anyway that whatever I have to say, with my limited creativity, will touch someone and will make you think and approach life differently. That’s my prayer for this blog anyway.
How did I manage to summon all my creativity to write this blog? First of all, Rocky videos. You can never go wrong with a Rocky video or two. You know, those where he exercises like crazy before the big fight. Boxing, hitting and running all those steps. The second task that I did was to listen to Eye of the Tiger, over and over again while I say to myself in the mirror: “You got this man.” More like a weird whisper. I have to say that the real turning point was task number three. I was on my way to the grocery store to buy essentials. The crazy person that I am decided to pretend that I was Mel Gibson in Braveheart. Shouting: “You may take our lives, but you will never take our freeedooooooooommmmm.” Chills man, literal chills. That’s where it all turned around for me. Rocky and Braveheart.
The earlier paragraph is fooling around a bit. I have to make jokes like that to keep my spirits up and not go insane.
Now what is it really about? The blog that is. I have more or less 15 topics that I want to write about. “Now what is it really about….?” is not the one that I have planned to be my second blog. But I feel in my heart that this is the topic that I am going to go with now. This principle that I am going to write about is probably the principle that I forget about every 2 months and then I get reminded by the Holy Spirit that I must go back to this important principle.
The verse that I want to make the center of my messages comes out of Proverbs 23:26:
“My son, give me your heart, And let your eyes observe my ways.”
This may sound idiotic. But do you pray wholeheartedly towards God? With our hearts? I know I didn’t. Not once in 2020. My prayers were so static and selfish. God, please give me, bless me and give me some more. Bless me with a good job. Bless me with a good girlfriend. Please, Jesus bless me with financial freedom. Sure, I know God is a God who wants to give His children everything that their heart desires. But my big question is, are we following Jesus so that we can get a gift from ToysRus? Is Christianity about give me and bless me?
Probably the biggest prayer today: “Oh God, please release us from Covid 19.” But once again. Is it about our desires and what we want? Is this what Christianity is about? Save ME. Bless ME. Do this for ME. Again, I repeat, sure our God of grace wants to bless us but are we in it for the blessing? Where are we going to be once the blessing is delayed? Or even given? Are we still going to pray?
This prayer of give me, which I am so guilty of, seems so selfish.
As I type this, I wonder what Jesus may be thinking of our prayers. I think Jesus is so desperate to hear a prayer like this:
“Jesus, I know you knock on my heart. Today I open up to You and I let You in. Come sit on the throne of my life, cause You can make my life into something beautiful. I love you Lord because You have loved me first. Come dine with me today. I am desperate for You. I am desperate to meet You. Not because I deserve to know you, but because You are such an amazing God”
I think Jesus is desperate to hear those words of affection.
I am mentioning this scripture not to convince you to give your life to Christ, but to invite Christ in your heart every single day: Revelation 3 verse 20:
“Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him, and he with Me.”
For the life of me I do not know why I keep on forgetting this principle. This is so simple. What Christianity is about. Love and relationship with our savior. Our hearts that belong to Jesus. I am a structured and method person and sometimes I get stuck in a method that I forget that it’s our affection that Jesus craves.
I understand that we do certain tasks for us to get favor from Jesus. But God loved us even while we are sinners. We do not have to do this or that. Jesus loves us so that He wants our time and affection and there evidence of this in Romans 5 verse 8:
“But God demonstrates His own love towards us, in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
He knew people would reject Him and choose the world, but He still chose to commit an act of love that will change the world. All Jesus cares about is our hearts. We do not need a method to get His attention. We already have our attention.
I am going to end this piece with one of my favorite verses. Romans 12 verse 9 (AMP):
“Love is to be sincere and active [the real thing-without guile and hypocrisy]. Hate what is evil [detest all ungodliness, do not tolerate wickedness]; hold on tightly to what is good.”
My favorite part is “love is to be sincere.” Not just sincere towards people but sincere towards Jesus. Pray wholeheartedly. Be authentic and full of love in our prayers. Jesus wants your heart. He craves it in fact. All this is about our hearts and giving it to Jesus on an everyday basis.